Wednesday, April 25, 2007

The Pursuit of...


For anyone who has seen the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" with Will Smith, consider for a moment replacing the word "happyness" with something important to you. For me, at various points in my life, this pursuit has included "the pursuit of graduation" (right now), "the pursuit of victory" as with a basketball game, and most importantly, "the pursuit of God." The point of this movie which struck me deepest was when Will Smith finds himself in deep poverty ($20 in his bank account), recently evicted from his home, in the middle of an unpaid internship, and the responsibility of raising a son. At this point, he and his son are sitting in a subway station in the middle of the night with nowhere to go, with only each other. The scene closes with Will Smith holding his sleeping son in the subway bathroom, baracading the locked door with his foot, and tears streaming down his face. His pursuit of happyness had brought him to this place. And it reminded me that often times those things which we pursue wholeheartedly, will often lead us to these kind of places, and it is in those places that we are faced with the reality of whether or not what we are pursuing is truly worth it. Unlike Smith, I think that my mindset likes to be focused on receiving only, as opposed to obedient risk-taking. It is easy for me to try to take the path of least resistence. And for a while, I thought that the path of least resistance meant the right path. But this is far from the truth I believe. Just look at the the life of Jesus. The life of His disciples. Resistance was the air that they breathed. But they knew the truth, and Jesus knew what must be accomplished. Resistance then can be used for good, because we are forced to trust in strength that may not be our own, but rather comes from Christ. The beauty too of facing resistance as we pursue what our goals, pursue our God-given calling/passions is that in this time we become truly thankful, and grateful. It is not the times that things come easy that we are most truly thankful it is when we put sweat, tears, prayer, and time in to something. What Will Smith had left in that subway bathroom was really nothing more than hope and his determination amidst an on-slaught of responsibility. He was faced with the choice to keep pressing on, keep hoping, keep fighting, keep loving, or give up his pursuit. As we press on, as we take the next step, as we set our eyes on the goal, we constantly have with us what has already been attained in Christ as stated in Philippians 3. Christ has been pouring in to us our entire lives through experiences, mentors, and relationships. And so as we can press on in our calling, and the pursuits which God has given us a desire for... but we should never forget where we come from, or what has been accomplished for us, and how he has been faithful. Sometimes we are freely given what we don't deserve. Other times, we have to fight, struggle, and obediently take risk. William Wallace said it this way, "Fight and you may die. Run and you will live at least awhile. And dying in your bed many years from now,would you be willing to trade all the days from this day to that for one chance, just one chance, to come back here as young men and tell our enemies that they may take our lives but they will never take our freedom!"

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Burned to a cellular crisp

So, I am kind of bad with phones. That's an understatement. I kill phones somehow... regardless of what I am doing with it, what I am not doing with it, when I am awake, and now, even while I am sleeping.

The new phone every two years with verizon should be more like 2 months for me, because that's around the average life span of mine. Since April '05 I have gone through more phones than I can count. I broke the screen of one playing air soft at a friend's apartment. I got one wet in the river fly-fishing. I got another one wet mowing the yard in the rain. I left one in Boston when I went up to visit Gordon-Conwell in the Fall. But the most recent story of how I killed my phone happened this week, and tops them all for sure. My phone burned... while I was sleeping... on my dresser... from a candle lit next to it. I could hardly believe my eyes when I woke up. The good news is, it only melted in two, and I can still make calls using a headset. The moral of the stories are:

a. don't go to bed with a candle still burning
b. don't set your phone next to a burning candle
c. don't let me borrow your cell phone... ever.
d. I am that guy who keeps candles out of dormotories

So, after a lot of generosity from friends and family in letting me use their old phones the past couple years, and a couple way over priced phones I had to resort to getting, I have finally caught up to my 2 years with verizon. This weekend I am sticking it to the man, and getting my 'basically' free phone from them... finally.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Wolfpack or Tarheels

This is a video by Rhett and Link which Mark Valentine showed me last week. With my brother being a graduate of UNC, and preparing to begin a the graduate program at NC State in the Fall, I found this video not only hilarious, but also very relevant. Enjoy... and Chris, hopefully you can access this is China.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

In my mind I'm gone to Gordon-Conwell


Yesterday, I opened up my Yahoo email, and had an email from Gordon-Conwell. I emailed them earlier in the day to see if they received my recommendation from my high school youth pastor. I assumed the email was regarding the recommendation, and that at the earliest, I might hear back from GC around Spring Break after they had some time to look over my application. To my surprise, in a very brief response, the GC Admissions office said, "Your file was actually reviewed yesterday and you have been accepted!" I couldn't believe it, I reread the email like 10 times before telling anyone else, because I was in complete shock. Anyways, after a yelp from Andrew, some affection from Jacob, and Brian looking up from the computer (which I took as him affirming me with congratulations)... I took a lap around the yard, and called my parents who were excited, as well as surprised at how soon I heard. Hearing from Gordon-Conwell has definitely been the highlight of the week, if not the semester, and while I am still going to finish my application for Wheaton Graduate School it is reassuring to have plans following graduation.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Christmas at the Beahm's


The beauty of nieces and nephews growing up in my family is that the clock turns back about 10 years at the Beahm house. What I mean is that the older we got, the later we got up on Christmas morning. I can only think that this year is the latest we'll probably get up on Christmas morning for a while. Josiah was enthralled with the gifts this year... and he is not even 2 yet. I can't imagine next Christmas when he will be able to say words like "fisher-price" and "nerf dart gun." I can't wait. This year Josiah certainly received the gift of all gifts at our house. My dad got Josiah a police car, which is bigger than him, that he can peddle around in. While peddling is not one of the first motions kids learn... after pushing Josiah around the living room this afternoon, it is clear he is on his way to learning his way around in the car. The rest of the afternoon was filled with eating egg, cheese, and sausage cassarole, which after eating probably 2 lb.'s of, I am currently feeling the affects of. Well, I am about to Skype with Jenny, Alex, and Wendy Jane, but I will leave you with a video my roomate Blake showed me last week. The kid in this video reminds me of Chris about 10 years ago, minus the vicious scratching on the box about half-way through. Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas with their families... and Nathan, Feliz Navidad. Miss you bro.


Sunday, December 17, 2006

10 gifts Jiu Jiu will never give Wendy Jane for Christmas

Jenny, your last post on double decker strollers got me interested in strollers. So I googled double-decker stroller, and found that double decker strollers were like jr. cheeseburgers compared to the monster thick burger of triple decker strollers and beyond. How anything beyond a double decker stroller is street legal... I have no idea. Well, one thing lead to another from my initial interest in strollers, to eventually thinking about all things Wendy related. So I decided to make a top 10 of gifts that Jiu Jiu will never give Wendy Jane for Christmas. While most of these could never be sent to China anyways, you and Alex can rest assured Wendy won't find these gifts under the tree from me in her toddler years. (no particular order)



1. Detachable skis for a stroller. I know Chengdu doesn't receive much snow, so it wouldn't be as useful a gift in comparision to if you lived in Boone, but regardless, I'm just not sure how these things are on the market. Black diamonds and babies just shouldn't have anything in common with each other. Wendy Jane, you will never receieve this gift from me. 2. The Pink SUV pet stroller. The day that Alex pushes fufu in a stroller, better yet a pink stroller like Wendy Jane's, is the day I drop out of ASU second semester of my Senior year and move to China (mainly because I want to be there to see it). Wendy, you will never receive this gift from me.





3. The baby Hummer. This is the Barbie Jeep and big wheel on Steroids. While this would be next to impossible to ship to China, I want my niece to drive something stylish as opposed to something with combat capabilities. This gift is much more suited for Huddy or Boston. Wendy, you will never receive this gift from me. 4. The stroller strap. The child in this picture is clearly cropped in, because I can't see any child being happy about being strapped to a stroller. Nor can I see this strap staying on for long, unless it has a padlock on it. Wendy Jane has a will, and I think freedom would be her way in this situation. Wendy, you will never receive this gift from me.





5. Harness buddy. A close relative of the stroller strap, this product is one that looks good on paper, but I just can't see it looking good in public. I know a leash when I see one, regardless of whether or not it looks like a Bailey or not. Wendy, I will never give you this gift for Christmas.
6. Tinkle targets. The primary reason I would never gift this to Wendy is because they are meant for poddy training boys. Secondly, I would never buy them for her because all you need for poddy training is a small light blueish, green plastic toilet, that can literally travel ANYWHERE with you (even on airplanes)... and an uncle to carry it. All these other poddy training devices are just gimmicks with catchy names I say. Wendy, you will never receive this fun, easy, flushable gift from me.
7. The Cart Coat. Hopefully you will never spend long enough in Carrefour that taking the time to decorate the cart would be necessary. I am a witness to how far a mere yogurt carton, gatorade bottle, or bundle of carrots can go in keeping Wendy occupied in a cart, so forget about your designer cart coats. Wendy, I will always be willing to help you decorate your room, but never a carrefour cart, you will not receieve this gift from me.


8. Diaper Depot. I don't know how all the stuff in this depot are related to changing a diaper. Give me a box of tissues, some lotion (not necessary, but useful) and a clean diaper, and we're set to go. Baby wipes: not needed. Baby powder: waste of space. Wendy, you will never receive this gift from me. 9. The Splash Shield. This product gives a bad name to bath time. There are no reservations with water during bath time in my opinion. Shields are for protecting. Water is for splashing. And bath time is for having fun. Yes, it could save some clean up time after bath time, but Wendy, you will never see this gift under the tree from me.



10. Last, and certainly least, I will never give Wendy a Duke mobile for a crib. Between the football powerhouse that Appalachian State is, and the basketball powerhouse UNC is, there is no need for her to have any affiliation with this second rate team. Don't be surprised if you ever receieve a Roy Williams edition mobile, or a Yosef edition though. Wendy, you will never EVER get this 'gift' from me.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Why Jill Phillips is one of my favorite songwriters

"Working hard to tie up the loose ends
So hard to decide who you let in
Put your best foot forward with a grin

I can see the fear behind your eyes
Wondering if someone will recognize
You’ve grown tired of keeping up the lies

Don’t whitewash the truth about yourself ‘cause
Nobody’s got it all together
If you want to be like everyone else well
Nobody’s got it all together

I have seen the darkness of my heart
And found a love that taught me its too hard
To walk through life and not let down my guard

What good is it to say please savior come
If there is nothing you need rescue from
Life is something no one has a corner on

Don’t whitewash the truth about yourself ‘cause
Nobody’s got it all together
If you want to be like everyone else well
Nobody’s got it all together

When the parts that are self righteous
Start to disappear
Every other life is
Just another mirror
And life is way too short to run and hide

Don’t whitewash the truth about yourself ‘cause
Nobody’s got it all together
If you want to be like everyone else well
Nobody’s got it all together"

- "Nobody's got it all together"

Title track from Jill's new CD. Check it out. Ask for it for Christmas... I am.